I really want to do something that I really want to do. You know what I mean?
I want to look forward to Mondays, and work late because I don't want to break myself away from what I am doing or take a project home because I can't wait to wake up on Sunday morning and work on it. I feel that some people actually achieve this in their life, am I deluded?
The longer I try to pinpoint my obsession, the more I realize that it may not be a specific job, industry or hobby. Perhaps my passion lies in doing something to positively impact others, to use my skills to obtain a specific result or experience a variety of careers to sustain my interest? I do not like those answers, they are too vague! I wish I wanted to be a doctor, or an astronomer or a forensic psychologist and then I could go after that specific job but I don't feel strongly about any particular career so I feel like I am wading around in the pool of life not going in any particular direction. I want another goal to chase after.
Everyone needs a stable obsession. Something that they love to do for no other reason that to enjoy the experience. I want an obsession that is not a person (I love you, Jay), a dog (I miss my doggie) or something that I am required to do; such as, cooking (everyone needs to eat) & exercising (everyone should exercise). What do I have left? Reading and Blogging don't count.
Ahhh the mid-twenties existential crisis. It would be so much easier if someone told you what your supposed to do- but then you wouldn't want to do that thing because someone told you to do it. I hate it, but I think there is something about sitting with the uncomfortablity of not having the answers and not knowing for sure. I however will be taking suggestions
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